I once dreamed of starting an orphanage and imagined myself
offering a home to hundreds of abandoned babies and children. My perspective
has since changed…
My first week in Uganda I looked expecting to find a child
abandoned on the side of the road just waiting for me to find him/her.
I looked and never
found.
The following months
I searched, I searched for an organization to work with to find those children
who needed me.
I prayed, I prayed that God would help me find those
children who needed me. I stopped.
The moment I stopped I found.
I found a little
girl, abandoned just days before. No sound escaped her mouth, her eyes were
clouded over, she had seen things I could never imagine and now she was
snuggled in my lap her breathing irregular. I watched her grow and every day my
love for her grew and grew and grew until I no longer had control over my
decisions. My decision to go home was immediately gone, who knew that someone
as tiny as a malnourished two year old could change the course and decisions of
my life.
My heart broke in two the first time she called me “Mama”
and every time after that. I thank God daily that she is in a home with loving
and hardworking mamas to watch over her. I cry to think that one day I could
find her gone, never to see her beautiful eyes again. I rejoice for the
opportunity to hold her close as she has medical examinations. But most of all
I have faith, I have faith that God will provide a way. I have faith and trust
in Gods plan for her and for me. No matter what happens I hope that I have made
my Father in Heaven proud by bringing my small bit of love into her life.
We were both in a low part of our life when God chose to
bring us together. We have both made each-other strong. I am beyond blessed to
be able to act as Gods hands.
Please pray for this little angel with a love for food, a
smile that melts your heart, eyes that sparkle with joy, hands that comfort her
friends, a mouth that blows kisses, and her darling, yet cheeky personality.
She is my miracle
